The Truth Is More Important Than The Facts

Hey Matt! I figured those were yours . . . awesome!

Sally and I met a guy from England (who happens to be a lawyer, although I didn't believe him at first because he just doesn't fit the type) during our travels who reminded me of you (if you had an English accent and were really really crude) so I thought I'd mention that.

Weight? Bad topic. Far too much controversy and agreement there (if that makes sense).

i could be crude, really i could

this would be a great topic but i give up on this topic every time. i just want to feel comfortable and if a few girls like the trewman, it's on. that's it. i like to eat. i like to feel good and i like to be able to wear comfy pants.

wear what's comfortable and let the attitude be attractive. your clothes won't be unappealing if you find attractive clothes that aren't the sweatpants with the elastic cuff by the foot. stay away from socks in sandals and if you got curly hair let it curl. if you got straight hair, let it be. if you ain't feeling the hair today, throw on a hat. when you come off as comfortable you come off as attractive. you never know who mght find your style attractive. true fact.

the older you get, the more attractive people look. when i was a young gun, i would think the odd girl was good looking, now it's on. i work the worst job for that. everyone needs groceries.

right now i'm completely uncomfortable with my weight. the bad thing is my weight gain is related to an anti-depressant i take. and it's the one that works. so i either don't take the pill and loose weight and be comfortable but risk depression, or i stay on and be uncomfortable and get depressed (today i got very very upset.) i'm sortuv screwed. now you can say "well just eat better and exercise." i have two excuses for why those don't really work (and to a certain extent they have validity.) i actually don't like eating, and if i do want to eat its usually because i'm really hungry or i'm depressed. controlling what i eat means figuring out how to force myself to eat instead of eating out of instinct. exercise is a hard one. i am lethargic and in all honestly very sickly. i get tired for no reason and could sleep as much as most people are awake. it's not really laziness though. i just go off things really easy and get frustrated and tired, its like my body just says "thats it, i'm outta here" and i'm done.

so i've come up with a solution. i stopped taking the damn meds (fuck it, i'll cope. the last collapse wasn't that bad.) i'm gonna try damned hard to stop eating meat. i did it once before and lost around 30 pounds in two months. and you know what, i felt better then than i do now.

Wow. That's lots of food for thought (no pun intended).
The "wear what's comfortable and let the attitude be attractive" comment is awesome...if only more people subscribed to that line of thinking.
I've gotten over many of my body image issues - I think it comes with age and taking the steps to feel comfortable in your own skin. It isn't easy - and I still have issues. More than anything I want to be fit and healthy - my motivation is no longer to be "skinny". I used to be a slave to what the size tag in my clothes or the scale said. Now I've accepted my shape (except I am still choked that the "leggy" Golding genes bypassed me and I'm the shrimp in the family).

As for the let curly hair curl comment from Kirk - I'm afraid I am one of those people who resists going "au natural". My hair is naturally curly (huge afro variety curl on a white girl - it's ridiculous) and I beat it into submission on a regular basis. Although I've been working with the curl lately b/c it is just too hot to deal with a blowdryer and flatiron. It's just so out of control and the bed-head that comes with it can only be likened to a bird's nest.

let your freak flag fly girl!

Now I'm a freak??