the trouble with tribbles
i've been feeling wierd lately. it's like part of me is shutting off. i'm completely disinterested with most of the things i usually enjoy. everything seems dull. people are uninteresting. this doesn't mean i don't like my friends or that i don't want to be around them, i just find any group more than four causes me to just sorta phase out. music doesn't interest me the way it used too or should. i love listening to music, but it gets dull very fast and i find my self changing discs after two or three songs. art has been hard for a long time, i just can't seem to drag myself to sit down and mess around with it. but now i seem to be uninterested in looking at or reading about art. add to all that a constant lethargic feeling and life gets very uninteresting and uncreative.
i guess this is all complaining (and i know there is a movement against complaining happening on a few other pages), but sometimes it helps if you put whats going on out there. it helps you define it and explains some of your behavior to those who care.
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Well I care Matt, and it helps to be able to type it all out, I know, so go for it. I'm not sure I have felt the same to that much depth, but I have experienced it. It's a weird place to be, and frustrating because there's no set formula for getting out of it. Once I had to pray constantly until I cared to be praying, if that makes sense. It took a long time, but God was faithful. Hopefully you will enjoy yourself on Saturday, big crowd and all - but you will be with friends, so I hope you find a bit of it amusing, if only to poke fun (which is a strange cure-all sometimes).
Posted by: mel | July 13, 2004 5:54 AM
Boy do I know the feeling . . . that's the way the last 4-6 months (actually maybe the last year) has been for me. But for me it's been a "no-care because there's better things to come" cuz I've had something to look forward to. However, there's a small part of me that is afraid that when I get to the fall and start classes it won't be enough to make me care again.
Posted by: caro | July 13, 2004 2:33 PM
Sounds to me like you are restless and bored.
Or your interests are just changing and you need to identify new ones.
Change is good. Go out and try something you've never done before (even if it seems totally out of character)...see where it takes you. Variety is the spice of life (aren't I just one giant cliche today).
Posted by: Lo | July 13, 2004 5:33 PM